Rashmia!

Geez, there’s a lot and there’s some I don’t even know yet. I hope to finish my sophomore year of college successfully, procrastination or not. Gain more confidence. Find out what I really want to do in college. Become a better person. Get taller (yeah, right). Decide to pursue nursing or not. Have an awesome 19th birthday. Expand my knowledge. Get a phone with TEXTING, finally. Continue to love and learn with Marion. Get a haircut soon. Be more comfortable with myself. Get a freaking job so I don’t have to worry about asking for money all the time. Spend an entire day baking. Go to the midnight showing of Harry Potter 7 Part 1 and dress up in complete gear *snort*. Meet Lady Gaga. Learn more about myself. Celebrate four years. Continue to be drama free. Explore NYC. Gain new lasting friendships and keep the ones I have now strong. Grow closer with God. Go on a food adventure in DC. Have more adventures. Etc, etc :)

This year had its major ups and little downs so it’s improving. I hope it continues to go up, especially this summer. I really want this summer to be better than last. Anyway, spring semester ended in May and it was pretty challenging but I’m glad I got through it. I should have listened more in Biology but it’s whatever, lesson learned. Oh and I turned 18 this year, I guess that’s cool haha. I remember eating a lot of good food, today included lol. So yeah, I’m too lazy to go into detail but the year is halfway done and we’ll see what happens next.

So far, June has been okay. A lot of my own issues popped up but it’s slowly getting better, I hope. My mom’s been gone for most of it so home life has been completely different. Quiet, messy, lonely, just different. Been going fishing a lot with my sister and stepdad. I would typically hate it but for the sake of my stepdad, I tried to enjoy it. I even managed to capture a lot of fish on my own hah. Got my first sunburn ever this month too, ouch. I went to bunch of graduation parties too and ate a lot, as usual. Speaking of food, I watched so many episodes of Man vs. Food this month. Anyways, I haven’t seen my friends as much as I wanted to but I still have the rest of the month. Precon is in a week so we’ll see how that goes. I’m still really hoping for KD to happen this month as well. I can definitely say the highlight of it was getting into contact with my sister again and my dad’s side of the family. Actually, that enough could make this month a good one. So yeah, we’ll see how the rest of this month goes. :)

This week was alright. I was home for most of it but I hope to change that soon. I got to see Chris again after so many months on Sunday! It was cool chilling with everyone again. I spent everyday after that just doing daily stuff. Waking up late. Finding ways to entertain myself, occasionally driving around. Sometimes I’d go out with my sister and step dad to random places but no where that really stuck out. Today was my sister’s birthday (happy birthday, yay!) so we went to the mall and had dinner at a buffet.

Well that’s it, this post was boring lol. I’m not good at keeping up with the week.

Damn, of all days, this challenge falls on this one. My day was pretty boring but here goes. I stayed up all night with Marion. Didn’t sleep til 9:00 after I dropped off my sister for her last day. Marion and I were supposed to wake up at 9:30 to go to Waldorf and apply to places but.. that didn’t happen lol. I woke up at 2:30 and ate some cereal. There’s a lot of cereal so I’m trying to eat up most of it haha. Then my aunt and cousin came over so I whipped out Just Dance. Dang, that game tires me out too easily. Shows that I really do need some exercise. But wow, that game is fun.

After they left, there was nothing else to do but go online. Then of course, that got boring.. So I decided to put on my graduation garb from last year and just prance around like an idiot singing Mulan songs hahah. I was actually looking for my prom dress but I was too lazy to put that on. But I’m telling you, I get bored too easily and do weird crap.

Then ate KFC, read a little bit, played the DS blahblah now I’m here. Watching Degrassi and talking to Marion. About to watch a movie maybe? Yeah. The end.

I like to read. I usually like to read at least one book every month but that hasn’t been done in awhile :/. Actually, one of my favorite places to be is inside of a bookstore. I don’t know why, I just really like being around books, haha.

I’m gonna be honest, I don’t have a real talent I can think of. I’ve only ever been mediocre at everything. I’m not trying pity myself or whatever, it’s just the truth. Oh wait, I’m good at dinglepop. Hahaha.

But let’s pretend I’m a natural born badass, that’s good enough. x)

One of the things I wanted to fulfill before I die was to see my sister and dad again. It’s been over 10 years without any contact. There were times where I thought it was impossible through many failed attempts on finding them. And now, I’m closer than ever. Just last night I got a message from a stranger and it read, “Hi, do you know who Sofia Hassan is?”

It was in that moment where my heart dropped and instead of my mind racing with a million thoughts, it immediately went to God. Even now, it’s amazing how God works and how well he knows me. How much he knew how hard I tried looking for her and when I felt almost like giving up, he gave me something like this. Something so miraculous. I couldn’t help but to smile and say, “God, your blessings are more than I deserve.”

So I kept messaging this person back until eventually, it was my turn to talk to my sister. Wow, I was not expecting it to be that quick but I was excited. She told me how much she missed me and though it was just a short conversation, it was enough for me right now. Then, I got her phone number. My mom is in the Philippines and I thought how perfect everything fell into place. As of now, I’m waiting to see what will happen next. I’m waiting to see if my mom managed to contact her and hopefully, have plans to meet with her.

I’m so excited, nervous, anxious, and grateful that now, we’re so many more steps closer. :))

Dance With My Father - Luther Vandross

I don’t know how corny this is but I always had a soft spot for that song. Whenever I hear it, I try to tune it out because it brings out too many memories. But anyways, that’s it.

Before it became an original idea, it was a little known fanfiction of Star Wars based around a group of friends. I think it was called Remnants of the Light before the name changed. Yeah, you’re gonna have to ask the author. :D